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I Still Hold the Pen


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Here we go again with a song by Barlowgirl entitled Beautiful Ending.

I once read all endings are beginnings. We just don’t know it at the time.

Most of the time, we are afraid of endings, especially when the thing that is about to end has a very significant meaning to us or if it will leave us in vain or hurting. There are also endings which we highly anticipate and dearly love because it brings healing and peace. I myself believe that all endings must be embraced wholeheartedly regardless whether it has significant meaning to us or none at all, whether it will leave us in vain or hurting, whether we anticipated its coming, whether it will bring healing or leave us more wounds, whether it will bring us peace or prolong the war because all endings are beginnings. We just don’t know it at the time.

A scriptwriter ends his or her story according to how he or she desires it to end. We, on the other hand, being the scriptwriter of our own life gets to choose our type of ending. But contrary to the popular belief, not all stories have fix endings. There are some that are open-ended. There are also some that were ended on a certain chapter but will be continued on another chapter. We end chapters of our lives according to what ending we choose and how we want it to end.

Isang sangkap ng buhay ang choices. Choices could either make our life on earth miserable or convenient. Dipende iyon kapag ginagamit mo ang isip mo. Sa buhay ko, marami akong nagawang bagay na hindi ko nagamit ang katalinuhan ko. Naiwala ko ata ang utak ko noong mga panahong iyon. So, that chapter of my life ended tragically. My selfish heart and my worthless brain divided me from myself and my most cherished self–my better halves.  As we part ways, I earned nothing but wisdom: You have to be careful in building your plot, for you to end your story well.

So tell me, what is our ending? Will it be beautiful?

Hopeful as you are when you encounter things like what I am encountering now, I am hopeful that this is another open-ended chapter of my life that will be ended soon in the succeeding chapters. Nobody wants to end his/her or other peoples’ story tragically unless one is born selfish and heartless.

But as scriptwriter of my own story entitled MY LIFE, I am bound to answer questions: Should I let go and leave things as they are? Should I just let my story end this way, without closure or concrete ending? Or should I just let other people decide on how they want to end the story I started and I do fear to end?

There are characters in our story who comes and go even before their part in story had come or before our script had ended. May mga tipo din ng character sa isang script na kapag nawala na istorya, di na pang-blockbuster ang script mo at lalangawin na sa takilya. Learn to keep your characters close to your heart. Do not make anything that will tear their respect and trust on you. You might end up like me, unable to end my own story with a beautiful ending. Learn to be true to yourself and to them. Say sorry today if you owe them an apology today for your apologies and sorries might be irrelevant tomorrow or worst, you might caused them a very deep wound that is hard to heal.

To all who can relate to my writings tonight and so with the song; to all who are hopeful that what they are going through right now will end beautifully and not tragically: as long as we hold the pen, we can write our choice of ending and how we want our story to end.

Will my life find me by your side? Indeed because I know, your love is beautiful.

Kindly leave your thoughts. I’m reading it. The comment button is at the bottom. Thanks

6 responses

  1. Fr. Archangel Jhudiel, O.M.H.S.

    Ave Maria Purissima…

    As you are holding your pen and writing your own script, allow God to guide your hand, surely it will have a happy ending.

    …Jummong has “Dakilang Hangarin for Goguryo”

    while our Beloved Ingkong has “Dakilang Layunin at Plano para sa Iyo”. Will you, Milagrosan auxiliaries,allow Him? We hope you will.

    To get the number spot in the box office, allow God to be the Director of your movie. He will give life to it. Surely it will win an Eternity Awards.

    God bless us always.

    Thank you.

    July 22, 2010 at 10:03 pm

  2. hijarachel

    di ko alam kung tama yung realizations ko lately. di ko lalam baka kasi “bumaba” na lang din yung standard ko sa mga pangarap ko sa buhay.
    dati kasi i see myself as a ‘spoiled daughter of GOD’ parang lahat ng gusto ko at kailangan ko binibigay Niya at nakukuha ko ng walang kahirap-hirap. I’m thankful for He let me realize things before from the wisdom of others. but now seems like I’m learning my lessons by experience.
    gaya nga ng sabi ko di ko alam kung tama ba realizations ko ngayon, para kasi sa akin (sa ngayon) di na importante kung paano matatapos yung istorya ng buhay ko. i still have my dreams, yes. pero ok lang kahit di ko matupad yun, anyway pwede pa namang gumawa ulit ng bagong pangarap eh. ang mahalaga na sa akin ngayon ay manatili at mapanatili ko yung mga importanteng characters sa istorya ko. hangga’t nandiyan sila na naniniwala at sumasalungat sa mga pangarap ko, go lang! kahit ilang beses mag-end ung iba kong pangarap ayos lang, basta ba may makakasama pa rin akong magbibigay ng pag-asa sa akin para gumising ulit kinabukasan.

    before when I was a kid I thought I was here on earth to live my dream. but now, that I grew up, I can see how big this world is. I want to live my life for all the people around me. yun na lang muna sa ngayon.

    (comment ko sa sinabi ko)
    –ahaha sabi na nga ba eh, ang babaw na ng pilosopiya ko sa buhay. kaya, kahit ganyan kinalabasan ng mga thoughts ko, ipo-post ko pa rin ito dito. para lang mai-share. at baka sa sususnod na panahon kapag nabasa ko ito ulit eh magbago na pananaw ko sa buhay.

    STATUS: open for changes. Ü♥Ü

    July 21, 2010 at 12:03 pm

  3. Hijas marites

    🙂
    Ayon nga sa iyo kapatid ang buhay ay natatapos ayon sa iyong pinili.
    Ngunit wag mong kalimutan na ang bawat pagpili ay mayroong responsibilidad. Sapagkat ang bawat pagkilos ay may mga buhay na nagbabago, maaaring hindi sa buhay mo, bagkus sa buhay ng iba. Ano man ang gusto mo?, ano man ang ginawa mo? ano man ang pagkakamali, nasa muling pagbangon iyan at kung paano ito itatama.
    masakit kung minsan dahil ang nagawa na ay nagawa na tapos na, hindi na maari pang ibalik, ngunit hindi pa katapusan,nasa natutunan iyan.
    Katuld ng “KAGANAPANG” ito marami na ang nagkamali at nagkakamali, ngunit patuloy pa rin sa PAGGANAP kahit na dumarating sa isip nila “WORTH IT” pa ba?
    Ngunit sino ba ang nagpapabalik? Sino ba ang humihila sa iyo pabalik? Nakakatawang isipin pero totoo.
    Tanungin mo ang mga karanasan ng mga taong nakaGINTO ngayon. Ang natapos nila ay hindi na mabilang ngunit hindi pa rin sila tapos.

    Ikaw papayag ka ba na matapos na lang ng ganito?
    Ako…
    Nasa pagpapasya ito ng may kapalaran…🙂

    July 17, 2010 at 11:01 am

  4. hijamichaella

    who among us never wanted to have a happy ever after at the end of our own stories? i bet, no one will.🙂

    and yes, we are the script writers of our own story.. however, it was not just our own story that matters, because sometimes, we are also just another character of a bigger story having different plot written by a different script writer. and most of the time, the flow of the story wasn’t really our choice..

    di ko alam if i am making sense here. may pinagdadaanan lang. hehe. but truly, i got inspired with this another heart-warming entry.🙂

    July 17, 2010 at 12:27 am

  5. japet

    kuya ang ganda po ng post niyo.
    kuya para po sakin,
    magiging maganda ang ating ending kung lahat po tayo ay magtutulungan at magkakaisa.
    tulad nga po ng sinabi mo sa post mo,
    hindi natin alam kung ang ending ba natin ay magiging maganda o masama.
    tulad din po ng sinabi mo sa mga coaching natin na tumatak sa isipan ko ay:
    “isa man sa atin ang mapilay, ay mahirap ng tumayo ng kulang.”
    it means that, we are all in one.
    WE ARE ONE TEAM, ONE GOAL AND ONE REGION.
    MILAGROSA!

    July 16, 2010 at 11:53 pm

    • hijakyle

      i agree to you kuya japet!

      July 17, 2010 at 9:08 am

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