I Still Hold the Pen
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Here we go again with a song by Barlowgirl entitled Beautiful Ending.
I once read all endings are beginnings. We just don’t know it at the time.
Most of the time, we are afraid of endings, especially when the thing that is about to end has a very significant meaning to us or if it will leave us in vain or hurting. There are also endings which we highly anticipate and dearly love because it brings healing and peace. I myself believe that all endings must be embraced wholeheartedly regardless whether it has significant meaning to us or none at all, whether it will leave us in vain or hurting, whether we anticipated its coming, whether it will bring healing or leave us more wounds, whether it will bring us peace or prolong the war because all endings are beginnings. We just don’t know it at the time.
A scriptwriter ends his or her story according to how he or she desires it to end. We, on the other hand, being the scriptwriter of our own life gets to choose our type of ending. But contrary to the popular belief, not all stories have fix endings. There are some that are open-ended. There are also some that were ended on a certain chapter but will be continued on another chapter. We end chapters of our lives according to what ending we choose and how we want it to end.
Isang sangkap ng buhay ang choices. Choices could either make our life on earth miserable or convenient. Dipende iyon kapag ginagamit mo ang isip mo. Sa buhay ko, marami akong nagawang bagay na hindi ko nagamit ang katalinuhan ko. Naiwala ko ata ang utak ko noong mga panahong iyon. So, that chapter of my life ended tragically. My selfish heart and my worthless brain divided me from myself and my most cherished self–my better halves. As we part ways, I earned nothing but wisdom: You have to be careful in building your plot, for you to end your story well.
So tell me, what is our ending? Will it be beautiful?
Hopeful as you are when you encounter things like what I am encountering now, I am hopeful that this is another open-ended chapter of my life that will be ended soon in the succeeding chapters. Nobody wants to end his/her or other peoples’ story tragically unless one is born selfish and heartless.
But as scriptwriter of my own story entitled MY LIFE, I am bound to answer questions: Should I let go and leave things as they are? Should I just let my story end this way, without closure or concrete ending? Or should I just let other people decide on how they want to end the story I started and I do fear to end?
There are characters in our story who comes and go even before their part in story had come or before our script had ended. May mga tipo din ng character sa isang script na kapag nawala na istorya, di na pang-blockbuster ang script mo at lalangawin na sa takilya. Learn to keep your characters close to your heart. Do not make anything that will tear their respect and trust on you. You might end up like me, unable to end my own story with a beautiful ending. Learn to be true to yourself and to them. Say sorry today if you owe them an apology today for your apologies and sorries might be irrelevant tomorrow or worst, you might caused them a very deep wound that is hard to heal.
To all who can relate to my writings tonight and so with the song; to all who are hopeful that what they are going through right now will end beautifully and not tragically: as long as we hold the pen, we can write our choice of ending and how we want our story to end.
Will my life find me by your side? Indeed because I know, your love is beautiful.
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